I just started the editing process for a book and it reminded me of just how hard editing is. We all know that no good thing comes easy and you have to work hard for it. But, as much as I really like the story I am working on, I have to admit that I am finding it is so difficult to go through the process of making it better. I’m reading the first draft and all I’m thinking is “this is really badly written!” all I can see are the many flaws. On the one hand, it’s good. Because if I read it without seeing any flaws, it means I haven’t grown in the craft at all. Hence seeing its weaknesses and so many mistakes is a great thing.
On the other hand, although I am grateful for the growth, it is also really discouraging because I can see it needs so much help which would probably take so many rounds of editing. So yeah, I’m feeling overwhelmed. I’ve been in a first-draft cycle since I started and now I think it was a great editing procrastination technique. I cannot remember who, but someone said something along the lines of ‘editing is when the real writing begins.’ This couldn’t be more true.
Usually, when I read a good book I don’t think of the editing, I just think “Oh my gosh this is pure brilliance.” I believe it just flows out from the writer and it was probably their first draft and all they had to do was maybe dot the i’s and cross the t’s before publishing it. The reasonable side of me knows that all the amazing books I’ve read had to go through rounds of edit. I need to just calm down and don’t rush anything. I just need to enjoy the process. And if I feel down or discouraged I just need to read other people’s well-written work for inspiration. anything to just keep going and not give up.
Rome wasn’t built in a day and this is my time to put in the work. I only started writing in October so I can’t expect to be writing at the level of someone that has been doing this for a decade or so. I know I need to be patient with myself and give myself some grace. Allowing whatever time I need to get to my destination. At this moment in time, I’m not going to lie, there is so much that needs fixing in the Story itself and the writing and everything, but I know, it’s a process. It’s not going to take a day or a week or even a month. I just need to lean into it and try and give it my best. my aim is simply to be better than the me of yesterday.
I can see the developmental edits that need to be done and that’s what I’m going to do first. This means working on the Story on a structural level. Trying to fish out what’s missing; things like plot holes. That is what I’m going to tackle first. I’m just hoping everything goes well and so I’ll throw myself into the process and just try to remember that right now I’m a student. I need to remind myself that it’s OK to appreciate and enjoy people’s work but I should not compare my work to anyone else’s. Although it doesn’t one hundred percent of the time stop me from feeling that way, I’m human after all. Like I said before the fact that I can see mistakes means that growth has happened somewhere inside me and hopefully I have what it takes to fix my book.
We just keep it moving and working hard. Good luck to anyone currently going through tough or discouraging Times. I hope that we get through this hurdle and get to the light at the end of the tunnel soon.
(P.S. my featured image is a draw-it-in-your-style challenge I decided to take part in)
Thank you for spending time with me and I hope you’ll be back here again next week Wednesday. Have a great rest of the week!